Here is the story of how Etnie was born. Josh and I went to bed early because we were very tired. We were also trying to get more sleep because we knew the baby was coming. Then at 2:56 my phone started ringing. I saw that it was Kaziah so I punched out of the arm and said get out of bed it’s Kaziah. I answered the phone and because I said hey, we’re having a baby. She sounded like she was in so much pain so I said oh my gosh are you OK? She said my mom’s here with me and we just got to the hospital. I told her to get settled and then we would go from. So so I started pacing the bedroom and just kind of freaking out a little bit then I was saying to Joshua oh my gosh the baby is coming. This is so crazy. Then I hopped into the shower and then after I was done getting with the shower I quickly just packed up stuff you need like my laptop and stuff then we woke up Greyson and told him that we had to go to the hospital because the baby was coming and he started crying and he was so excited then I told him to try to get some sleep. Then we went to Aubrey‘s room and she was very confused and I told her we were leaving to get the baby and she just kind of was like OK it kind of rolled back over then we went and woke up Rhett and told him that we had to leave and he had no idea what was going on then dad and I went and got into the van. We were so excited and worried and we were just talking to each other about how excited we were when we were driving to the hospital. We parked in the veteran parking, but then we had to go into the emergency room because the whole hospital was closed when I walked in. I said it’s not an emergency. We’re OK. Our birth mom’s just went in labor. Can you help us get to her. Then they guided us to the labor and delivery waiting room. We went up and said that Kaziah was our birth mom and if we could come in, we had to have a code to be able to get in so I found Rachel‘s phone number. I texted her that we were there. She sent  the code and so we went back. Kaziah was already in bed and had already had her epidural and she was feeling less pukey. Then at 4:30. I decided to call grandma, because it wasn’t so early in the morning anymore. I told her that we were having a baby. Then I asked her what we should do about the children because Thanksgiving was the next day. Josh and I had already discussed probably sending them to Burleigh and just meeting someone halfway so we were trying to see if Courtney was still in Utah, but she had already left so we had to go meet someone so grandpa came to Snowville to meet him. It took about an hour for the kids to get ready and to head out so I was waiting at the hospital while dad was driving the kids. when cause I got to the hospital, she was already at two and then they came in to check her then she was actually 206 and they had to move your head to get those catheter in so we were sitting there and it hasn’t been very long and they came in doing something and I asked Rachel what they were doing and she said they’re getting everything out for when the babies is born and I was like how is it already possible the baby’s coming and so they told the doctor got there and she was like OK let’s ready to have this baby so everybody that Irys and Kaziah stayed in the room and the doctors then I went out and sat with Angie and Rachel in the waiting room. I had forgotten to put my phone on the charger the night before so I was just sitting there freaking out cause I couldn’t get a hold of dad then we were just sitting there chatting just kind of waiting for everything and like it felt like 15 seconds later Irish walk out and I asked them I said what’s happening is everything OK? And Irys is like well. The babies here and I freaked out. I’m just freaking out just like oh my gosh I can’t believe she’s here so I asked Angie if I could find her borrow her phone. I called dad and I was like where are you and he was in Ogden and he said I’m on the way I’m coming and then I was like well. You’re a dad again and he got really excited and he’s like holy cow was so fast and Irys told us it was for contractions and 11 pushes. I was like holy cow it’s only been 12 hours. This is crazy so then I waited for dad to get there and we texted and said hey Josh is here. So once they were ready, we went back. We walked in and Irys was standing there next to Kaziah. We just were standing there back. They’re just watching them and then you pooped all over cause I asked cause she didn’t have a diaper on yet. you actually pooped in the uterus, which is dangerous but luckily nothing happened. The nurse brought you over and we started to clean you and just say hi for the first time and then after you were cleaned Rachel was like can I hold her? I have to leave so we let Rachel hold her and then she passed her to me and I just got to meet you fully. You were so cute and sweet. Your lips were huge and your lips and your cheeks were huge and we were just the most precious thing and then I let dad hold you which was so sweet and then Angie and Ben got there and I let Angie hold you and then Ben was holding you and I was just staring at you and finally Angie was like I think she wants the baby back and then there was so many babies born that we had to wait for our room they asked if we wanted to share a room and I said no can we have our own so they moved us to a labor and delivery room while we waited and I was famished so dad went and got me some Bear River breakfast. I put my headphone in, and I laid you in the bed and I just kind of laid down with you wrapped in my arms. I was listening to my book and all of a sudden there was a noise and I looked behind me and the nurse was standing there and I jumped out of my skin and she was like I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. Oh, I noticed you have a headphone in somebody’s here to meet her. Grandma Taft came to see you then we let her hold you for a little bit and dad got back and after she left, we ate the most delicious breakfast ever because I was so hungry. After that Kaziah and Irys were leaving after six hours after having birth cause I deserves a gold star then they got to say goodbye to you and we unwrapped you so they could actually see your whole body and they left and then we just laid there waiting for the them to get us a room.

Dad and I just kind of hung out and talked to people and sent pictures of you. Everyone was so excited that we were having you and we took pictures of you and sent them to the kids then finally the nurse told us that we were ready to go to our room and so we got into the elevator and got up to your room. The nurses there were so nice. They were so kind and they loved your name and they wrote it up on the thing they gave us a whole bunch of advice and they gave us all the supplies and said that they would get back to check on us then we were just sitting there waiting and just kind of hanging out so we decided to order some food for dinner and they just gave us a free food. It was absolutely terrible. It was good at the first bite, but it was not good. Then I worked a little bit and when we turned on friends and dad went home to go get all of his stuff and we were just watching Thanksgiving episodes of friends and I’m gonna always think of you when I watch a Thanksgiving episode of friends. We also watched a whole bunch of Thanksgiving episodes of Big Bang theory. We just sat and talked and just joked and everything, but I was missing dad because he had to sleep on the couch and I slept in the bed. You woke up a few times you were just so hungry. It was hard to say you so I had to call the front desk and be like what am I supposed to do? She’s still hungry and they were like. Can you try a binky? I said I’ve already tried to try the Binky she won’t take it. Is it OK to feed her so I fed you and you of course threw up because you weren’t supposed to have more food, but you were not being satisfied then the thermometer in our room was not working so it would get really hot and it would get really cold and I put you into this little pjs that was fleece pjs. Then I swaddled you back up in the blanket they gave you because they don’t actually put clothes on you at this one apparently. We were so tired because it had been such a long day, but we tried to sleep as much as we could. I woke up with you in my arms one of the nights and I was like what the heck where did you come from? One of the times that the nurses came in. She scared the crap out of me because I was sleeping so deeply that I screamed out loud. I did not wake up dad though then the next morning we were going to get your shots done and they milked your leg and I hated it and you also passed your hearing test. The lady there had a sister who just had a baby that she was 45 and she had done in vitro that is crazy then we got you dressed and we just waited for them to be able to tell us we could go home so they walked us out to the car and they just sat and wait for daddy to bring the car around then we popped you into the car and they said have have a good day then we drove you home and we got home and we got all settled and we were just kind of walking around and just kind of getting used to you and then I went to work for a little bit and I came downstairs crying to dad just to have thrown a fit and he was like what is wrong was like. I just love her so much and I don’t wanna work. I hate it but he said it was gonna be OK and we’re figuring it out then we just went to bed for the night and kind of woke up with you and no worries then on the day after Thanksgiving, your brothers and sister came home. They were pretty excited to meet you and Greyson and Aubrey held. You and Rhett refused and Rhett was kind of being naughty, because he does not like change. He has pretty bad OCD and he was not liking it, and he was being naughty. He also was worried when he leaves that we’re not gonna come back for him which is so sad then we all just kind of got settled in. It was the weekend we kind of hung out. Just got to know each other looked at you just kind of did whatever you wanted.

 September 2nd 2025

Hello baby. This is probably the hardest time of an adoptive parents’ life. It is the fear that kills you. We never know if the Birth Parents are going to change their mind. This is something that they could do at any point before they terminate rights. It is just a very hard holding pattern. I think about you all the time. I teeter on the precipice of trying to convince myself that I do not want a baby. Then my mind screams that I want you to come live with us. It is a very hard way to live. I am having such a hard time concentrating at work. I just want to get the house ready and clean for you, but you will not be here for 3 months, so I need to chill and get the stuff that needs done, done.  Your big brother had a book I wrote in, but I think this will be so much easier because I can type much faster, and it looks so much better. Also I cannot lose this. 

Okay where to begin. Probably at when I ran into Kaziah at Hobby Lobby. Ace, Bre, and I had to go to Hobby Lobby to get something to give to Mrs. Westwood for her prize jar. I thought Hobby Lobby would have something cute, and I was right. They had these cute little silicon foods. Anywho, there was a long line and I am glad that the people in front of us were taking forever or I would have never saw Kaziah. I told your sibs to wait in line while I went and talked to her. She told me she was working at a Daycare called Kismet. She was also living at home, and is pregnant with you. I asked her if she was excited and she said yes, and she was a little nervous. I asked if she had a name and she said she does not like to pick the name out until she meets the baby. I was so happy she was having a little girl. Then I let her go, and your brother and sister were saying that she looks like Jo Jo Siwa. We left it at that. I thought she was 21, because I am very bad at remembering people’s ages. I feel like they grow up so much faster than they should. She was only 19 and Irys was only 18 at the time. When I was thinking she was 21 I was happy for her. A little nervous, but happy. 

Then we came home and got ready for Back-To-School night. We went to Wasatch first for  Grey to start 5th grade. We went to Mrs.Westwood’s class and just talked to her. Then we walked out and saw Rachel. I was telling her that I ran into Kaziah and asked her if she was excited to be a Grandma. She said that Kaziah is only 19 and she was very scared for her. I told her I had no clue she was 19, and that is so crazy. She told me that she was thinking about placing for adoption. 

Now what happened next I will blame on my cousin’s baby because I held him that weekend and he was sooooooo sweet and cuddly. It made me so baby hungry, which I have not felt for YEARS. 

I told her that if she would want to consider us we would totally be down. She told us to text her and see what happens. I then looked at you Dad and kinda widened my eyes and shrugged my shoulders. I do not remember what we talked about, but I was probably just stoked. Then we had to hurry and go get Rhett for Bre and his back to school night. We also took their friend Rydian with us. We got to the Jr. High and split up and looked at all of the classes. Then Rydain said he was going to walk home because we needed to leave for tumbling. Then I saw the dork just hanging out with his friends. He got home safe sooo…. Anywho we came home and I texted the following to Kaziah. You can see that it was at 7:53 and I talked with her mom at around 5 o clock. I was not playing around. I really wanted another baby. If she was willing to let me have you I was going to try. 

Then I nervously went to bed and tried my hardest not to think about it. 

That week was just a normal week. Getting ready to start school. Buying everyone supplies, getting haircuts, picking out first day of school outfits. The normal hustle and bustle of the week before school. The on Saturday Blink had to go get his shots. We let Ace and Bre cone with us. They had such a fun time. There was this big poster of all the dog breeds and we had fun talking about what kind of dogs we want and how fun and different they all look. Then we went to this cool park in Pleasant Grove. It has a bike pump path, a skate park, a splash pad, and a huge playground. We went out to burgers, we had such a good time. 

Monday was the first day of school and I always bawl like a little baby when they all go to school. I hate seeing my kids get older, it breaks something inside of me every time. I love seeing everyone changing and growing, but I know I am going to miss all of this someday and it makes me very emotional. This is something you will learn about me really quick. I feel things quite deeply and it brings me to tears quite often.  Anywho, I just went to work and was just living my best life. At 2 we had to meet with Rhett’s therapist. While we were there Kaziah texted me this. 

I knew in my heart that she was going to pick us after this. I don’t know why, I could just feel it. I had a hard time paying attention to the meeting after that. I was on pins and needles for quite a while. Then at  6:53 at the dinner table I got this text on my watch. 

We were eating Dad’s amazing Chinese Food and he was still working on it and I told him he had to put his plate up and follow me immediately. I was hyperventilating and needed to tell him. Your brothers and sister were so very confused. 

Well this was supposed to be updated constantly, but life is busy.

Here is your birth story:
Dad and I were very tired. It was a Tuesday. I told your siblings to keep it down and go to bed on time. Then at 2:56 my phone starts ringing. I look down and see it is Kaziah. I yell at dad and say it is Kaziah wake-up. Then I answered the phone and Kaziah said “Hey we are having a baby.” she sounded like she was in so much pain. She said “My mom is here with me and I just got to the hospital. I told her to get settled and we would go from there. We got showered and woke up all of your siblings to tell them we were leaving. Grey cried. Aubrey was confused, and was like what now!? Rhett woke upo for a second but could not keep his eyes open. We rushed to the hospital so excited.